Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Sometimes it still gets me. The restless inability to get to sleep. Insomnia. I used to suffer from it so bad I had to go on sleeping pills. Eventually it went away on its own.
Once in a while it comes back to visit me, and I am left tossing and turning into the wee hours of the morning. My brain tries hard to occupy itself which usually serves to keep sleep away longer. I stare at the clock and think about all manner of bizarre things.
Last night desperation set in and I even tried masturbating to tire myself out. I got a mediocre orgasm out of it and I still couldn't sleep. 2:00am stretched into 4:00am and when I last looked at the clock it was nearly 5:00 in the morning.
Of course by the time I got to sleep it is nearly time to get up for the day. My kids aren't late sleepers and they don't take no for an answer when they come to get me out of bed. No naps for me.
So now I am drinking coffee and gearing up for one of those days.
I know this post is totally pointless, LOL, but at this point I don't care at all.